Its Saturday and I never blog on a Saturday but no soccer and only 3 kids ( ha that sounds funny ONLY 3!) but sitting up in Briggs room nursing I was thinking ( well I wanted to use the word pondering for some reason?.... Kaylas vocab must be wearing off on me! lol but naaa thinkin' is a much better word {wink}!) anyway was thinking about my children and started to think about how much I thought I wanted little girl this last time, but that God has His plans for me and He created each of my children to come in a certain way be it a girl or a boy and how very lucky and happy I am to have my Briggsie:) As I laid him down I look at all the blue in his room - his sheets, his blanket, his walls...... even his outfit today ( as we are all n PJ's still :)!) are blue. Blue is actually my favorite color- sure I love all things girlie and pink but I love blue sky's, blue tshirts ( umm Carolina blue that is!), and best of all love those big blue eyes that two of my kiddos have. He knew that Kayla was to be well Kayla- super smart, witty, fashion diva of the family and able to do most things all on her own at a very young age ( talking more potty training, reading, writing, and she started talking I really think at like 6 months I thought what is up with this kid at the time!....... still not so sure about the cooking part for her poor thing! shhhhh....) He knew my Em was to be the great nurturer of the family practically doing everything but feeding her baby brother. She reads books to the boys when I am busy, and yes she got the cooking gene-the good one from maw-maws side , sorry grammie:(, she can bake some mad cookies and her mac n cheese- Auntie Amber watch out! lol He knew how my Jaxs would be the first born son and how MUCH I wanted a little boy 5 years ago and knew not how very different little boys are {wink}. He knew how sensitive yet daring Jaxson would be and how awesome he is at compliments; " You are the most awesomiest mommy I think around, mommy!". He knew my Cashman would be a crazy, LoUd, tv loving, snugly ball of energy and when hes not around though I think at time wow this is different ( quiet is more what I think...), I truly miss him like crazy and need my buddy back:) so all the randomness mush is almost to an end but back to my thinkin'---- I am soooo thankful our God knows this plan for my life here and I am so SuPeR thankful I get to walk into that nursery, see that little blue-eyed boy in his blue room, with blue jammies, look up and give his momma a big happy grin and melt my heart each and every time:)!

O enough, right?! Off to make some acorn and butternut squash for that blue eyed lil man and yes we may just stay in our pj's ALL day! lol