Butterflies.....

R u all sad that it has been 3 whole days since my last post!! LOL Well this isn't really about anything and I do love this pic of me and J, but I am just feeling overwhelmed this week - and to all my friends/family NO there is nothing u can do for me because I know u all would !! I think it really has hit me about my tri coming up Aug 25th -( I am still 8th on waiting list but they said usually 25 people get in so on AUG 14th I will officially have my name down but pretty sure I on- better HUH!??) I am SUPER excited and of course nervous but the biggest thing I am struggling with is if I good enough to do it- now I know I am not going to "win" and I keep telling myself as long as I finish in the time allotted ( under 2hrs 45min) it will be OK but I have such a competitive spirit that when all those bikers in their gear - shorts and a T for ME :)! - coming flying past me I am going to have a hard time sucking it up!! I know too that I have been training super hard and the right way so physically YES I can do it, but it's the inside that is getting me down! How silly is this, but with everything else- school, sports, everything that is in our/my daily life I am just letting it get the best of me so PLEASE say a little prayer at night for me to have peace and LET go of all my worries and just truly to have FUN ( LOL) come race day and be happy with doing my best!! :) And I will go ahead and apologize to anyone who may feel like I have been distant or haven't called u back ( U all know how horrible I am with that anyway LOL) or hung out or whatever, but that's me- I get so focused on something sometimes I lose count on what really means the most to me MY family and MY friends :) LOVE YA !!